I received this book for free from Caffeinated PR in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
Narrator: Michelle Sparks
Series: My Beautiful Suicide #1
Published by Spikenard Publishing on March 28, 2012
Genres: Young Adult, Mystery
Length: 11 hours 41 minutes
Source: Caffeinated PR
Cosette has a rough life, but it isn’t until she accidentally kills someone that Cosette makes the decision to end it. Unwilling to hurt friends and family, Cosette feels the best method of suicide is to become a victim. But when she goes out and gets attacked; instincts take over and she ends up killing her attackers. Guilty, desperate, and scared, Cosette does the unthinkable.
“Suicide is selfish.
It tells the world that you are weak. It tells the world your family and friends have failed. It leaves them with guilt that they could have done more but didn’t. It tells them they are clueless and helpless.
I am weak, but I am not selfish.
My suicide will not leave my family and friends with guilt and shame; it will leave them thankful that they knew me for the short time I was here.” – Cosette Hugo
Her brother died. Her parents divorced. Her high school bully is relentless. Cosette doesn’t have a lot to live for, but it isn’t until she accidentally kills someone that Cosette makes the decision to take her own life.Unwilling to bring shame to her mom, best friend Mattie, or her boyfriend Chris, Cosette decides the best method of suicide is to become a victim of the local serial killer, The Poser. But every time she goes out to find him she gets attacked; her instincts take over, and she ends up killing her attackers. This quickly leads to unbearable guilt. Desperate to finish this before she gets caught or racks up more victims, Cosette does the unthinkable.
“And when I reach my final goal, to meet my brother in heaven, and we’re looking down at my victim in Hell, he will say to me ‘Well done, Cosette. What a Beautiful Suicide.’”
My top thoughts:
I really enjoyed this dark and twisted YA. Cosette is severely depressed. Her brother, who she was clearly close to, died in a tragic car accident. Her father left her and her mom after that and that parent-child relationship is epically fucked up. Her mom is doing her best, but she’s clearly not seeing how bad her daughter is hurting, especially as she is getting bullied at school.
And yet, this is nothing like I expected. This isn’t the story that glorifies or romanticizes suicide. Instead, it’s the other way someone hurting this bad could go. It’s a twisted mess. It somehow manages to be YA and really feel like teens, but the themes are very mature. I don’t want to say too much about the plot, because lots of unexpected things happen and it ends with a HUGE twist, which is a bit of a cliffhanger too.
Who I think would like it:
If you like Dexter, I think you’ll enjoy this. It has the dark, twistedness that made Dexter great. And you want to root for the characters, even if they’re doing bad things. It’s YA, but very mature.
The narration, by Michelle Sparks, was really enjoyable and I will not hesitate to listen to other books she narrates. I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about it, but I’m glad I gave it a try and I’m very much looking forward to listening to the rest of the series.Bels was surprised by the twisted tale in My Beautiful Suicide. 4/5 Stars #audio #review Click To Tweet