A weekly feature hosted by Jessi @ Novel Heartbeat. Each week Jessi will choose a subject and I will talk about that subject in my life. The topics will be non-bookish so that you can get to know me on a more personal level!
See the full list of topics HERE.
This weeks Topic: Fears
I was really looking forward to doing this one because I thought it could be an intervention for myself or maybe just getting it out there will make me over come it a lot fast then waiting until it’s to late.
I was going to go with the typical Spider or maybe even the dark, I can even go as far as saying losing my children. They are legitimate fears I have but I think the one that gets me the most and holds be back from what I want the most is the fear of failure. I will try very hard not to go off topic but my fear of failure comes from my lack of confidence I have in myself. Did you know I want to start a design business that helps bloggers make headers, logos and other cool stuff for their blogs? But I am so scared I will fail at it that I have written down a few times what I want to do, I just keep putting it aside because I am so scared no one is going to like it? Did you know I want to start designing covers for first time authors? But again that stupid fear of failure creeps in and I talk myself out of doing it. I have so many ideas that have been put asides because I fear that I will fail at it.
I know someone (Berls) is reading this and she is going insane because honestly she is my biggest pusher when it comes to all of this and without her backing my ideas (most of them) would have never happened. She is always telling me to stop talking myself out of doing things and actually pushed me to turn a feature I have into a Meme because I don’t think I would have done it if she didn’t push me. I don’t know were this fear came from since I actually think I am really good at what I do and think I have good ideas. The biggest risk I ever did was starting this blog because again I could fail but I really do it because I love it so much and even if I did fail I was just glad I took the chance. So why can’t I do that for my design stuff or my ideas? I don’t know. One day I want to write a book….guess what’s holding me back 🙁
I am hoping that one day this fear will go away and the only thing I have to fear are nasty spiders dropping from the ceiling on my head in a dark room…..Ahhhh just freaked myself out 😉
I’m sure you have a fear, does it prevent you from doing all the stuff you want to do?
Have a great week!