News at Home: Anxiety!!!
I am not generally an anxious person, but this COVID shit has me all kinds of twisted up. I hate that my husband has a job that keeps him from being able to stay home. And even though I can work from home, I can’t very well do that with Dante, so I’m still taking him to daycare. And I don’t know how I feel about that any more. In the last 30 minutes my husband has plied me with questions, because he’s so anxious. Should I and Dante go stay with my brother and his partner? Should he quit his job and stay home? Should I keep Dante home?
And then my worries I haven’t voiced to him because who needs more stress… Dante is supposed to get his 6 month shots this week (he turned 6 months on the 18th), but is it a good idea to be at a doctor’s office right now? And is getting groceries safe? And we have a good supply of stuff, but who knows how long this will go on and if they shut down stores, will we still have enough? I see all these memes about how much people are eating and I find myself unintentionally rationing, because I have this subconscious fear of running out. We have lots of formula, but people are stock piling it, what if we need it and it’s gone?
So yeah, I have lots of anxiety right now. It all started when I started working from home Monday. That shift from normal life to this quarantine situation really made everything hit me hard. I love Dante so much, but man, what a bad time to have an infant y’all.
My week was STRESSFUL. Monday I worked from 5am – 1:15 pm, because Daycare had the babies on shifts to make sure they had no more than three babies in a room at a time. Dante’s shift was 7:30 – 1:30. And it was a long day. My work day now begins at 5am to try and capitalize on the time Dante is asleep. Tuesday got worse because Dante had a low grade fever when he woke up. 99.9. Normally that’s fine for daycare, but right now? Nope. So I kept him home. Then Wednesday, same deal, low grade fever. So I tried to work from home while he was sleeping, which was NEVER when I had to be on a conference call. And I had a lot of them, because I was in charge of getting all our instructors setup to teach remotely. By Thursday I was so relieved to take him, but they told me that they were down to 3 babies in his room, so no more shift, he could come all day. Yay, except, it made me question myself. Should I be keeping him home? How can I provide for him by working, though, if I keep him home? I find that I’m really hoping Kiko’s job will get shut down because we can afford to temporarily lose his income, but we can’t afford for him to quit and lose his rent benefits and job long-term.
To top it off, Dante was so fussy this week. I thought he was teething, hence the low grade fever. Thursday I had to go up to daycare to feed him because he cried nonstop and wouldn’t eat for the teachers 🙁 Then Friday he started with diarrhea. He has no fever and is still drinking formula well for us. So IDK what to do, but I really hope he’ll be better today. Maybe he feels the stress? I took him for a long walk Saturday (staying well away from everyone outside) and it was so nice to just be outside for a while. Anyway..
I hope everyone is staying safe and doing their best to not let the anxiety get them down. I was thankful to Hallmark for Christmas movies, which I started watching yesterday. And while I won’t be putting up my Christmas lights, I’m enjoying the thought!
Since we all could use some good stuff, Michelle and I decided spur of the moment to have a Facebook Live yesterday… where we announced our plans (formulated mere minutes before the Facebook Live) to host COYER: Quarantine Edition.
The post is up, joining us in feeling better through books and an awesome community.
Last Week on the Blog
- [18 Mar] Suzy Spitfire and the Snake Eyes of Venus Tour
- [21 Mar] #COYER | Quarantine Edition! #Booklovers
- [22 Mar] Sunday Post with Berls | Anxiety!!!
- [22 Mar] The Sunday Post ~ I’m back but just to check in ~ Week in READview!