News at Home: COVID Quarantine Week 6
Well week 6 was most definitely my worst COVID Quarantine week thus far. To summarize: My husband and I had probably the worst fight of our 15 year marriage Sunday, I was super depressed and cried most the day Monday, We made up Monday evening, Tuesday was better until I took a CBD gummy that made me very sick to my stomach, Wednesday was okay, Thursday I found out that in 60 days my department will be dissolved and I am laid off – so I have 60 days to find a job, but they have a job ear marked for me (I just have to apply and interview), Friday I found out that job hasn’t been officially created yet and they can’t guarantee it will be before June 23rd – my last day employed in this position, so I spent Friday (which was mine and Kiko’s 15th anniversary) updating my resume and I have applied to 6 internal positions. I have not told my husband and don’t know how to, because (1) I am the bread winner; (2) I am our health insurance; and (3) how did I manage to get laid off from the one place not laying off right now?! Let me tell you…
My department is grant funded. A year ago they applied for renewal and did not get the money. We just finished our reapplication, but our grant money runs out at the end of the month. However, we have university funds that have been allocated to us – enough to operate until the end of the fiscal year, when we would have (hopefully) gotten our grant renewal. So we had been told not to worry, we could use our funds until the end of the fiscal year and if we weren’t renewed, that would give us plenty of time to be transferred. Well, now COVID has cost the Hospital/University tons of money. Yes, they’re better off than a lot of places, but they’ve lost their big money makers (i.e., elective surgeries). So they’re looking for money. And they’re very proud to say they aren’t doing any COVID related layoffs. Instead, they’re closing down departments like mine, that before COVID would have been just fine. They not only don’t have us to support, but they can immediately take our operating funds and reallocate them. So yay, I’m getting laid off, but not technically because of COVID.
I have a lot of people pushing for me to get transferred, so I do have hope. The University’s chief epidemiologist, when I told him, said “I am sick that your job is in jeopardy. You have done an amazing job supporting my course, the best support I have ever gotten. If I can put in a word for you, let me know.” I’ve had similar responses from a few people and on Monday my plan is to email them the list of positions I’ve applied to and ask them to put in a word for me if they know anyone that might have any sway.
I’ve been killing myself, waking up at 4:45 a.m. so I can work from 5 until Dante wakes up (6:30 or so usually), working his naps, supporting courses whether he’s asleep or awake, and working weekends, making sure to do an honest 40 hours of work. My manger, who is also out of a job (my whole department is laid off) told us all, “do what you have to for the bare minimum to get done, I’m doing your evaluations right now – they will be the best you’ve ever gotten – and focus on getting a job. If that means your 40 hours are spent 35 on job searching, interviewing, and resume updating, fine. This is shit and you deserve better.” So at least there’s that.
So yeah. I’m incredibly down. As I told one of my friends this week – I feel like my life has been one fight after the other and every FUCKING time I think I get to just be happy, the rug gets pulled out from under me. I loved this job. They were going to promote me and I was finally going to make a really great income. Now I’m just desperate to be employed. Please cross your fingers for me, pray to whomever/whatever you believe in, I need major luck. This is probably the worst time for this to happen because not a lot of opportunities for finding new jobs right now.
Until Friday, I was actually getting some good blogging in this week. When Dante’s awake I try to visit blogs and write some posts. I do hope to keep that up some this week, but my main focus will be getting a job. Saturday I kind of participated in Dewey’s 24 hour readathon – didn’t finish a book, but did more reading than I’ve done during the day in a while. I also took a nap. I needed it – physically and emotionally.
Today we have our first COYER book club chat and I’m super excited to see everyone on Zoom. If you’re in our FB group and haven’t seen the invite, be sure to look and get the zoom info!