News at Home: Trying to find the positive
At first I started to title today’s Sunday Post “Work Sucks” but I really am trying to find the positive, so I changed gears. But yeah, work sucks. And the problem is not the kids. I have one kid that’s not a picnic, but he is going to be fine. I’m getting him there, one day at a time. It’s my admin. So here’s the positive. I’ve come to the realization that my principal is very threatened by strong women. And we are a team of strong women in Kindergarten. A couple of us more so than the others, but we aren’t the sort to be submissive to men just because they are men. We are very assertive, intentional, purposeful women who know we are good at our jobs and refuse to act otherwise. And he is threatened as hell. He’d never admit that, even to himself, but it’s the reality. I’m going to try and not dwell on work though, so I’ll just leave it at that. And the fact that I’m very certain this is my last year at this school and probably in the classroom. I’m looking for other options, jobs that would help me as I continue on my path to opening my own school. That goal is not going away. It NEEDS to happen so badly. And I really look forward to the day where I can go up to all this horrible administrators and be like “my school kicks your schools ass because I treat my teachers with respect and do what’s right for kids.” But in the meantime… sigh
I’m trying really hard to stop dwelling – I have had this constant running commentary of shit I want to say to my principal in my head and it’s affecting my sleep, ability to relax, etc. So I’m trying to shut it off. I kind of succeeded a bit this weekend and it’s going to continue to be my goal. I’m helping it along by keeping wine in my fridge at all times and I will probably have a drink almost every single night this school year. Healthy? At this point, maybe.
Blog News
I’m very happy with the fact I was able to spend a few minutes Sunday – Thursday visiting blogs this week. I intend to spend some time today visiting and writing posts for the next week.
We’ve decided on a date for Bloggiesta – it will be October 22-28, which is the last full week of Anna @ Herding Cat’s Blog Ahead event. The two events really work well together, so I plan to sign up for both and hope you will too!
#FitReaders Update
So Saturday 9/1 was my first day back to the gym and it felt so good to be back! I worked out Saturday, Monday, Wednesday and Thursday – and honestly I didn’t feel limited much at all. But then on Thursday I got a really bad leg cramp. And again on Friday. So I pulled back a bit and didn’t work out Saturday or today. I’m bummed, but I no I have to listen to my body. Thankfully my amazing masseuse managed to work me in and I have a massage today 🙂 Hoping that will help and I’ll be ready to go full steam ahead on Wednesday. This week is light anyway because I work Monday night, book club Tuesday night, gym Wednesday, Meet the teacher Thursday. So I’ll probably try to go on Friday… though I do have a meeting after work so we’ll see.
The scale has FINALLY started moving again! I’d been in a stall for like 2 months but accepted it as mainly surgery recovery. But I’m losing again and I’m hoping I’ll reach my goal weight by the start of the new year. Only 40-50 pounds to go!
I need to work on my water consumption big time though! That’s going to be my goal this week! 64oz of water minimum!
Last Week on the Blog
- [3 Sep] Deadly Escape by Colleen Helme ★★★★
- [4 Sep] Task it Tuesday | Coming back #taskittues
- [5 Sep] #bingewatchersclub ~ What I plan to binge watch and some updates.
- [6 Sep] Monthly Book Report ~ It’s been a while!
- [8 Sep] September #MyTBRList winner. Which Jay Kristoff book will I be reading this month?
- [9 Sep] Sunday Post with Berls: Trying to find the positive
- [9 Sep] No New books but lots of going ons ~ WIR & SP
Coming Next Week From Me
I hope to have reviews up for Amore by Bella Jewel – parts 1 & 2 – and a discussion post about what keeps you blogging. It’s not a lot so hopefully I’ll get them ready today.
You have the best attitude. I don’t think I could do it. My mouth gets me in trouble too much. I’m so ashamed of how teachers are treated in this country. I knew things were bad, I have too many teacher friends to know otherwise, but seeing that new Times article, it is worse than I thought. I donated to a local teacher here who just wanted paper, pencils, pens, normal school supplies because her kids had nothing. Luckily, she got funded, but she shouldn’t have to beg for money for basic supplies. So glad to hear that your back on some weight loss too. I’ve been going the other way because of prednisone and not getting in much, if any, exercise. I’m off now and hoping to get back to losing. Have a great week.
I like your attitude. It’s difficult, but I have faith you can pull it off. Hopefully you’ll be back in the gym “full-time” in the next month or so, which may help you blow of the steam and frustration. Meanwhile, maybe you can find an outlet for getting those things that are clogging your mind out in the open (rather than keep them in or actually say them to your admin!). YOU ARE VALUED and RESPECTED! I’m glad you are a strong woman and know this! *HUGS*
Thanks Jen! I’ve kinda resolved to not let admin in my head and I feel like it’s starting to work. I wrote myself some new affirmations this weekend that I’m using for my miracle morning that focus on staying positive and not letting all this crap bring me down. And I had a really good day yesterday, so fingers crossed it works! What I’m REALLY hoping is that we’ll get back to the status quo, where admin ignores kinder because they have a lot more to worry about with the testing grades!
Hope your week is off to a good start 🙂
Eye on the goal Berls, focus on that!
Definitely trying! Yesterday was a better day and I think it’s helping to tune out Admin 🙂
The admin at a school can make or break your time as a teacher. I have had all different kinds of principals so I know how you feel. I think its even worse to suffer through when you KNOW things could be better. When I was a newbie teacher I didn’t know any different; now, I’m not going to take it laying down. I hope you are able to find a workable solution to this! Hang in there!
So true! It’s especially hard when last year I had probably the best principal you could hope for. She respected us as professionals, she respected our time, and she had realistic expectations. To go from that to this is just extremely jarring. I’m trying very hard to put current admin in a box and ignore them as much as possible. If only they’d just leave us alone like they usually do with Kinder! But I do refuse to just sit back and take it!
Thanks and I Hope you have a great week 🙂
I’m sorry work is such a pain. With all the health things going on for my daughter and then my own little thing for the past 2.5 weeks, I even tried to quit. But they need people, so it was supposed to be I would work weekends so they wouldn’t schedule me during the week That way I could do our medical appts. I’ve only every asked for 3 days a week. So they did schedule me for every weekend, and then went right ahead and put me on 2-3 days during the week also. Now it’s Sunday and there’s no schedule for Thursday forward. I’m a planner so I hate that. I can go ahead and schedule appts but then they want me to move them or just schedule over them. My daughter has an appt tomorrow 10-1 w which I put on the calendar over a month ago. It is a doctor and therapist who are only both there on Mon and Wed mornings. So they scheduled me 10-7. UGH. So they switched me with the later shift which is 1-9 but 1 is still pushing it. Sorry to dump but I get the work frustrating thing.
My therapy is books and luckily I get great ones. Work is part of life, but it is not my whole life.. They may not remember that but I do. I’m lucky I can actually quit if it doesn’t improve. Wishing you a better week ahead. Anne – Books of My Heart
Thanks Anne! And yes, I so understand. And that’s exactly the mentality I have too – and keep reminding myself – Work is part of life, but it is not my whole life. I know they would very much like it to be, its kind of the expectation for teachers and I just refuse. Quitting is tricky for teachers because of contracts and the ramifications of quitting during a contract to your teaching license. But it’s something my husband has told me to feel free to do if things get worse/don’t get better.
Good luck this week with everything!!! I’ll be thinking of you 🙂
I am just going to send you lots of HUGS! Because I am so sorry that this year is so crappy for you. 🙁
I keep wine in the refrig also but that is because my family makes me need a glass EVERY night, sometimes two. 😉
I hope this week is a good one, Berls! Happy Reading! ox
Thanks Michelle. I’m trying really hard to get past the admin and focus on enjoying my kids. And the wine. There will be wine every weeknight, for sure 🙂